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anonymous
subconscious influence?
TN ,
USA
90+ man, attracted to men most of life, seldom acted upon. Aversion to all sex, including solitary masturbation, but could not resist that. Terrible guilt feelings. But did like girls, dated, platonic. Only child, parents divorced. Rarely saw my father. I asked my mother why I felt this guilt about sex. She was 90yrs old, I 70. She said she told me "Never touch yourself or a girl." Asked her, "How often did you tell me this?" "Over and over." "When did you start telling me this?" "As soon as you could understand." I had no memory of that but do recall, at age 10 -12 her asking me, "Have you been playing with yourself? You have dark circles under your eyes." Married age 34. Now for 50+years. Normal function, sired 3 children. without guilt!!